to 1CoolSBM1960 :It wasn't easy when I was young It was a crazy situation and initially It was him manipulating me and gradually turning me into a secret cocksucker for him . As I said he was very dominant and intimidating and he would catch me walking trying to sneak past his place and I would try to make excuses when he caught me because in the beginning I was confused about why I let him make me start sucking him and in school I would be day dreaming about it and it affected my grades. I just wanted to stop for a while because my brain was all over the place but he would catch me walking. Call me over and he would tell me walk and talk when I was making up excuses and the next thing I knew I was being guided by him each time I slowed down or stopped he would get just behind me and tell me to keep walking and the next thing I know we're walking to his place and soon as I was inside he would sorta make me feel guilty trying to avoid him. I'd say I wasn't but he knew. He'd say well your here now and tell me to strip. He would be upset with me and put me over his knee. Spanking me hard but then rubbing out the sting telling me that I made him spank me because I was not being honest with him but mostly not honest with myself. He'd spank me hard for a few minutes then stop. he would spit on his fingers and then rubbing my hole . Saying have I ever steered you wrong or lied to you? I'd say no . He would say you like that? Rubbing my hole and get me to say yes and then I'd start saying " but" and then He would spank me more till my ass turned red telling me there is no " but" understand me? He got me confessed that I just wanted time to think but he said I can think while I sucked him and then asked me don't you like pleasing me? I would feel guilty and look away and say yes. He would tell me to stand up and then point to the floor between his feet and I would sheepishly do what I was told. He would tell me this is what you need tell me to open my mouth. I don't know when I heard his voice saying that's it and moaning saying that feels good telling me he knew that I needed it. I just need him to remind me. He would start saying isn't that better? You know you like it suck it show him how much I need to make him feel good.